I figured that I'd just share this. Because I kinda just want to get my "feelings" out.
Yes feelings, those things that everyone likes to keep to themselves because they're afraid of criticism.
Anyways,
Yesterday I had to deal with something that really, really hurt me. And I wrote this.

So, take what you want from it.

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Its taken me a long time to learn things in life. Even though I'm still only 17, I've established a lot of things in my life. The one thing that's recently hit me hard in life is how much people don't care about each other, even though they say that they do, ( To maybe earn themselves a small amount of self gratitude, that they oh so deserve. ) And then, after the person that really thinks that they can trust is their friend, the other one breaks it off and spits in their face. And completely ruins the other persons feelings, either by saying hurtful things, or trying to bring them down by trying to perturb the feelings or opinions of others. ( Or because that friend doesn't approve of them, and who they are. )
This happened to me recently. You know, I dont trust a lot of people in life. And, I find that every day that my life progresses, I begin to notice that more and more of the people that I thought that I could once trust start to decrease. And I find myself growing closer to the other people that I really can trust. ( And they can trust me too. )
I call these people my best friends. Why? Because, simply put. They are.
With these people, I can establish a close relationship with. I can talk to them about everything. I can tell them anything that I want to without worrying about them criticizing me or tearing me down in attempts to make themselves look better for their own selfish reasons. It really does irk me to know that I have so few of these people in my life.
I cant seem to understand why its so difficult to find these people without getting hurt in the process.
And I think most have experienced something like this in their own lives at one point: You think someone is your best friend but they're just the generic selfish person that I hate. They end up hurting you in the end, and it absolutely crushes you. To know that someone in their right mind for whatever reason does this.
I cant even tell you how many times Ive gone through that. And I think its the main reason that I have such a small quantity of true best friends.
Every day, this whole problem presents itself throughout the days events.
I'll talk to someone that I think is my best friend but I can tell that they really aren't through their actions, or what they say. ( Whether it be their own selfish wants, or actions. )
And its terrible, and I'll admit it, it makes me want to cry. To know how many people out there do this.
I am proud to say that I've got some amazing friends in my life that I cant imagine not having as my best friends. They keep me going all the time. And its them that makes me enjoy life.
( If youre reading this. You know who you are. ) Thanks for being my best friend. You dont have any idea how much that means to me.
You know, we make friends, and we allow these people into our lives by being friends with them. And we do this by telling them, "My life is better with you in it, and Im glad Im sharing this experience with you that we call life."

If you took the time to read this. Thank you I guess,
hopefully someone appreciates it.


And one thing that I can say from all of this, is this:
Keep your best friends close, and don't ever take them for granted.