I just need options and ways if I'm wrong. I have put some of my lyrics down below just tell me what you think.

Lyrics:
When I was born,
my father left me fatherless,
momma told me to never speak about it,
but I always think about it,
honestly I would talk to my self,
and ask myself,
why he leave?
Couple of years later,
the mongrel rises,
took me out for some shoes
Dishonestly I hated it
Drop off and didn't say arrivederci
Moms would ask me how was it?
Just looked and went torpidity
Awaken from the ponderous
The ponderous adheard me
Trendsetting
Inexorably I ascend from the grave
Concerning gash
I asked mom why dad left us
He tried to subside me to abortion
He tried to break us apart
My mom was notified
Ensnare me from his metacarpus
Bargaining out the door says "I'm through with you"
Extorted to his conveyance
It subsists to fracas,
That was the last of him
Ever subsequently that scene haunted me
Seeing flashbacks of my dad
He's a scoundrel
I despise him
He's cad
Giving 62 cents to child support
Now I understand
Mos days I stay mad
Showing no expression
So I gained my adolescents


So there you have it.
Tell me what you think.
Is it good or do I need to improve.

Ps: some of this words may be hard, so go back and see what words fit that line.