For years I played call of Duty and always been a fan and always was do proud to see teams build from nothing to the biggest thing ever to where they inspire other people to do the same things. I was always inspired by Nordan Shat and the whole FaZe team In general . I always played cod and it may seem **** but I was always good. I loved sniping and trickshotting. It was my dream to join Saw,L7,Obey,Darth, or FaZe and I always went for it but never was able to record so I sent clips through skype. I used to get feeds and then I got banned back in January after playing for 10 years with xbox. I was devestated about losing xbox and all my friends and not being able to play cod, my favorite game, months passed and here I am and I try getting back into cod and I always try practicing to get better cause now I suck. Every time I go for a feed I always miss a quad or a triple , and I only do this to get into a decent clan. That's all I want, just this one clan called Scare, but all my clips are gone and bad. I can't snipe anymore and all I feel is to give up and leave xbox, and cod. I can't find a team or don't have anymore skill and it kinda saddens me cause I try SO HARD for 4 weeks from dusk to dawn I play non stop and get no clips and it's frustrating. I don't know what to do, but some may say I'm overreacting or a no life, but this is what I'm passionate about and I'm losing my grip on it. Please help with adice guys. Thank you.