First off, I want to start off by saying, I care about you and you can talk to me whenever you want, if you're ever feeling down or suicidal.

Well Nord, Why do you say that?

First off, a little story
I recently lost a friend to suicide.. 12hrs : 53mins ago.. I've been helping him so much and every time he talked to me it made me feel great because he trusted me so much, so much that he told me everything that he thought what was wrong him.. but when the time came, we hadn't talked for 2 days because he said he was going somewhere with his family ( He lived in the U.S and I'm from Ireland.. So I really don't know if he was going.. ) but 2 days without a single message, I thought he was having fun, socialising and being with family. But I got a message from his brother saying what happened. I've sat in my bathroom for 3 hours kicking and screaming and crying because he was the only person i've had so close to me ( We weren't game buddies, just talked a lot about politics, mental problems and how we can fix them together, I have depression and anxiety also.. so I know what it feels like) this **** me up a lot... I'm using all my energy and focus on this topic so I don't do anything stupid .. I'm still really upset obviously..

Ok.. Now for the main part..

Please, Talk to anyone, talk to family, talk to friends, i'm here, i'm your friend, you may not know me but I hate when other people have depression and I try my **** best to fix them, I never put myself first..
You're loved, You're wanted and I know how bad it hurts knowing that you fear your families reaction, trust me, My parents said it was just a phase and I'd get over it, but it's not.. it's always gonna be here, but we can make friends with our demons, we can befriend these demons and we can carry on with our lives with happiness, we can turn those fake smiles into real smiles, we can turn this around, Trust me. It's worth it <3

And it's ok if you don't want to talk because you don't trust me, but talk to me, we can get to know each other, we can build up that trust and we can fight together

Or if you don't want to talk, please consider the following <3
National Suicide Prevention U.S - 1-800-273-8255
7 Cups ( Free Chat Therapy <3 Recommend <3 ) - [ Register or Signin to view external links. ]
Or please look up your countries lifeline <3

I know.. this is such a random topic.. but it's helping me cope and stopping me from what my demons want me to do, just writing this... it's helping.. <3

For all those wondering, Trust me, I'll be OK, My best friend and I are talking right now and she is so calming.... <3 I'll respond to everyone on here who needs it <3

Much Love,
Nord / Jay


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