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Basically for the last 3 years of my life I've been constantly thinking about dying, like how it's going to happen and what happens after it really scares me. But this isn't the main problem, I feel like life is so fake but I know it's real so it's messes with my head and sometimes I don't know what to do with myself, I can't help it every time I try and do anything I over think it. I've been thinking about death ever since I was really young but now it's got a lot worse, it just to just happen once in a while at night and I'd be able to move past it by just thinking about happy memories. That's not the case any more, I think about it all day everyday, every single action I take I over think it, if I do anything bad I instantly feel guilty about it. I don't see the point in life if we spend all of our time building it to make it better although in the end we all just die anyway. I'm scared that when I'm older I'm going to look back on my life and be really disappointed with it no matter how successful or how much of a failure I turn out to be.
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I would say you have depression. I used to have those feelings but not so much anymore. You need to surround yourself with happy people because happiness can be contagious. However if you feel the need to hurt yourself please check yourself into the nearest emergency room or call your national suicide hotline.
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Xerath wrote I would say you have depression. I used to have those feelings but not so much anymore. You need to surround yourself with happy people because happiness can be contagious. However if you feel the need to hurt yourself please check yourself into the nearest emergency room or call your national suicide hotline.
I'm not feeling suicidal, but I don't have many friends any more, I chose a girl over a lot of my friends and they didn't like that so they started spreading fake rumours about me around college so I dropped out, I'd probably feel a bit better if I was actually doing something with my life. I work but they're all older than me and my boss treats me like shit.
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I have thoughts of my own about this too. Trust me, you are not the only one. Maybe you should talk to someone, or maybe try and get into counseling or something. Try and find new hobbies that take your mind off of things like this. I'm not really a great help, but if you ever want someone to talk to just shoot me a PM and I'll talk with you.
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Xerath wrote I would say you have depression. I used to have those feelings but not so much anymore. You need to surround yourself with happy people because happiness can be contagious. However if you feel the need to hurt yourself please check yourself into the nearest emergency room or call your national suicide hotline.
I'm not feeling suicidal, but I don't have many friends any more, I chose a girl over a lot of my friends and they didn't like that so they started spreading fake rumours about me around college so I dropped out, I'd probably feel a bit better if I was actually doing something with my life. I work but they're all older than me and my boss treats me like shit.


You shouldn't let a mere rumor make you drop out of college. You should re-enroll and get your study grind on. Be concerned about your future and not what is wrong with your life. Get the education you need for the career you want to make the money you need to pay your bills and buy life's luxuries. I can't really stress out how important college is. It's the only thing that separates the $7.25-12.00 jobs from the $13.00-$??.?? jobs.
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ChodyBills wrote I have thoughts of my own about this too. Trust me, you are not the only one. Maybe you should talk to someone, or maybe try and get into counseling or something. Try and find new hobbies that take your mind off of things like this. I'm not really a great help, but if you ever want someone to talk to just shoot me a PM and I'll talk with you.
Thanks man, I try to talk to my friends about it but no-one ever listens to me, tbh I need a girlfriend that I can talk to, the girl I talk to now all she ever wants is sex and whenever I try to have a normal conversation with her she just changes the subject, I was fine for a couple of years and then when I turned 15 something just clicked inside me and now I can never stop thinking about it.
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Xerath wrote
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Xerath wrote I would say you have depression. I used to have those feelings but not so much anymore. You need to surround yourself with happy people because happiness can be contagious. However if you feel the need to hurt yourself please check yourself into the nearest emergency room or call your national suicide hotline.
I'm not feeling suicidal, but I don't have many friends any more, I chose a girl over a lot of my friends and they didn't like that so they started spreading fake rumours about me around college so I dropped out, I'd probably feel a bit better if I was actually doing something with my life. I work but they're all older than me and my boss treats me like shit.


You shouldn't let a mere rumor make you drop out of college. You should re-enroll and get your study grind on. Be concerned about your future and not what is wrong with your life. Get the education you need for the career you want to make the money you need to pay your bills and buy life's luxuries. I can't really stress out how important college is. It's the only thing that separates the $7.25-12.00 jobs from the $13.00-$??.?? jobs.
The job I'm on now pays a lot more than that, but it's because I do crappy hours on the weekends which no-one else wanted, I'm only 17, I get too much money which I never spend on myself because there's nothing I ever want, I just give it to my family or take my friends out now and again, apart from paying for computer parts and my driving lessons I don't really buy anything because I'm more interested in going out like for walks and stuff or to play football.
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ChodyBills wrote I have thoughts of my own about this too. Trust me, you are not the only one. Maybe you should talk to someone, or maybe try and get into counseling or something. Try and find new hobbies that take your mind off of things like this. I'm not really a great help, but if you ever want someone to talk to just shoot me a PM and I'll talk with you.
Thanks man, I try to talk to my friends about it but no-one ever listens to me, tbh I need a girlfriend that I can talk to, the girl I talk to now all she ever wants is sex and whenever I try to have a normal conversation with her she just changes the subject, I was fine for a couple of years and then when I turned 15 something just clicked inside me and now I can never stop thinking about it.


I wish I had a girlfriend like that. However it is important that you have someone to talk to. I hope everything gets sorted out for you bud.
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Xerath wrote
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ChodyBills wrote I have thoughts of my own about this too. Trust me, you are not the only one. Maybe you should talk to someone, or maybe try and get into counseling or something. Try and find new hobbies that take your mind off of things like this. I'm not really a great help, but if you ever want someone to talk to just shoot me a PM and I'll talk with you.
Thanks man, I try to talk to my friends about it but no-one ever listens to me, tbh I need a girlfriend that I can talk to, the girl I talk to now all she ever wants is sex and whenever I try to have a normal conversation with her she just changes the subject, I was fine for a couple of years and then when I turned 15 something just clicked inside me and now I can never stop thinking about it.


I wish I had a girlfriend like that. However it is important that you have someone to talk to. I hope everything gets sorted out for you bud.
She's not my girlfriend, I wouldn't even want her to be my girlfriend anymore, I used to be into her so much and then I told her and she said she felt the same way and now we just have sex sometimes we don't even talk about normal stuff it's annoying. I hope it gets sorted too, it's ruining my life I can't do anything without over thinking what the outcome could be, even if I do the slightest bad thing I feel really bad after.
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SPN wrote
Xerath wrote
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ChodyBills wrote I have thoughts of my own about this too. Trust me, you are not the only one. Maybe you should talk to someone, or maybe try and get into counseling or something. Try and find new hobbies that take your mind off of things like this. I'm not really a great help, but if you ever want someone to talk to just shoot me a PM and I'll talk with you.
Thanks man, I try to talk to my friends about it but no-one ever listens to me, tbh I need a girlfriend that I can talk to, the girl I talk to now all she ever wants is sex and whenever I try to have a normal conversation with her she just changes the subject, I was fine for a couple of years and then when I turned 15 something just clicked inside me and now I can never stop thinking about it.


I wish I had a girlfriend like that. However it is important that you have someone to talk to. I hope everything gets sorted out for you bud.
She's not my girlfriend, I wouldn't even want her to be my girlfriend anymore, I used to be into her so much and then I told her and she said she felt the same way and now we just have sex sometimes we don't even talk about normal stuff it's annoying. I hope it gets sorted too, it's ruining my life I can't do anything without over thinking what the outcome could be, even if I do the slightest bad thing I feel really bad after.


Cynical thinking is never good. You should always be optimistic unless the situation calls for a different view.
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