So this has been killing me for the better part of the day. Before we went out last night she asked if this was a date and at first I said lol yeah because I thought she was joking (she said we should go on a coffee date) but then I realized she probably wasn't so I texted back saying it can be what ever you want, you might hate me at the end of the night and never want to talk to me again. I didn't word it like that but you get the idea, I didn't want to freak her out because it's her first date as well.

We were talking again this morning and she asked what I was doing and I was fixing some things that I had mentioned last night (it's hard to explain and way to long to type lol but picture like fixing the fence or something). I said "hopefully that'll be fixed before I see you again *laughing emoji*" to which she responded "*laughing emoji* lol. speaking of which, want to do next Friday again?" Anyway, that's a long way of saying we're going out again next Friday.

Now the hard part is figuring out what this is. We had talked about the whole "is this a date" thing and even in her profile she says "looking for friends, maybe a relationship?" and I'm still not sure how she's trying to view this. Obviously we're two very different people, she's 2 years older than me, drinks, and smokes pot and I do not drink or smoke (don't worry, it's legal here). We've had similar life experiences so we kinda connected on that but I'm not sure if it's a friend connection or more than a friend connection?

And now the challenging part. I started texting her and another girl literally on the same day. Say girl 1 is who I went out with last night and girl 2 is the other 1. Girl 2 asked if we could go out Thursday. Of course I've never met her and she seems nice over text, but I really like girl 1. We connected on a few levels and we both just wanted the night not to end, we were together for 8 hours lol. Right now I feel really bad that I'm talking to 2 girls and they both don't know, even though from the sounds of it that's normal in online dating? I don't know. Like I feel really bad that I'm just talking to both of them, honestly I feel like dirt just thinking of going out with girl 2 then girl 1 again the day after.

The other issue with that is they both live in the same town which is an hour away from me but that's not a problem, the problem is it's a REALLY small town. The odds of them knowing each other is slim, but the odds of girl 1 finding girl 2 and I together is actually pretty high because girl 1 roams around the city. Girl 1 is so shy and innocent that I don't know if she understands the dating multiple people thing or likes it? For me I get people do it, I just don't want to do it because I feel bad lol.

So now my question is what do I do? Do I ask girl 1 how she feels about "us"? Do I delay girl 2 until after the second meeting with girl 1? Also from an environment like Tinder or Bumble or online dating like, if a girl is looking for a relationship is it normal to start out as friends first? If everything goes well, how long should I wait until I actually ask her to be my girlfriend? The last to questions aren't specific to this girl, just in general for future reference.

Also as I'm typing this, I'm talking to girl 1 and we might meet up tomorrow? Slim possibility but maybe. Also we're now friends on Facebook.