Ghost wrote I don't share this very often and I think there's only a handful who did but I'd like to share it as it's good to get things off your chest.

At 14 with my mental health deteriorating i was very suicidal after an attempt I was sectioned for 2 weeks. During that I had a phsyce evaluation which came back as depression & psychosis. Which explained quite a lot. 8 years pass and I decided at around middle of my 22nd that was it. I plucked up the courage to plan everything out & not only leave my family a will and a note explaining everything, doing so I swallowed a combination of painkillers. Not entirely sure if I'm allowed to say but you can leave it to your imagination.

After a while I woke up in hospital with my mum next to me. I had doctors, nurses and a handful of people I didn't know explaining that it wasn't all over. Turned out I damaged liver, which was "beyond repair" so I had to make a lot of adjustments throughout my life fixing. As it turns out, alcohol dependency definitely didn't help either. So I had to stop. A lot of people would have said it was a miracle I survived. After that lot I was then sectioned again for longer and finally diagnosed with schizophrenia. Which affects EVERYTHING.

3 years later a very close friend of mine took his life. Struck a hole in my heart and life to the point where now I spend quite a lot of time online helping and trying to support people. One of which gave me a job after I helped him. My takes on those things made me realise there's nothing more precious out there than life. I'd love for people in that position or thought it will get better.

Edit: there's a lot I left out. But I'll just drop it there.