Shit man, so sorry for your loss, the fact you was with her when she pasted would mess anyone up mate. But as you said, but you have to look at it now, she is now not in no pain, and she is having fun in heaven dancing, and having a blast. That's what I always think of when I lost my nan to cancer, about 7 years ago. My nan loved Elvis, so now I always imagine her, upstairs dancing and singing with Elvis lol. Losing someone that close to you, you ain't never going to get over it, you just have to deal with it, and think positive about the situation. I still think of my nan all the time, and me and my family always still talk about her, and say funny jokes about her lol, because my nan was somewhat a bit of a joker lol, so she would want us to all be happy and still talk about her, rather than all us be upset, we know that's what she would want. It's the same thing with my nan, she battled cancer for 4 years, doing Kimo etc, and she was always sick, and couldn't even walk without help, and she was always in pain, so now I just know she is in an awesome place now with no pain what so ever. She is up there now with her husband and Elvis partying hehe. Who knows maybe your mum will bump into my nan up there lol. But this is how I dealt with the loss, I just think of all the good times I had with her, and still always talk about the memories with my family. It's gonna be hard always man. Take it, easy man, if you ever wanna talk, PM me yeah. Thank for reaching out to us bro.

No problem . I always think of her as.special times come up especially our birthday I'm augest 5th she was the 10th

about a year ago my old school friend who i went to middle school with was killed in a car crash by a speeding and drunk a$$hole, the friend was one of my ex's who i stayed friends with i was sad when her brother told me what happened

Lost my aunt 5 years ago due to a heart attack and to this day I still wish she was here, hard to go through a birthday knowing she wont be able to be with the family